I have too many thoughts for words today.
Yet I feel it is only by words that I can sort through these thoughts.
This morning, I have been overwhelmed by the same lesson I have learned many times before. Yet each time I learn the lesson, I find that there is another aspect that shines a little more brightly. I internalize that lesson a little more deeply, and process it a little more clearly.
That's why I keep talking about it, and writing about it. There's always more to say. Always more to learn.
This life? It's not my life.
And I say it flippantly at times, almost carelessly. We're all Christians. We all know the pat answers. We know the right things to say, and the right way to say them.
Yet I face myself today, stripping away the lofty words and mindsets. And I admit. I want to run my life. I want it my way. I want to make my own decisions, say my own words, pursue my own dreams.
And I can do that. Any time I want, I can grab those reigns and run away down the path of self-will. I've done it many times before. I've done it recently.
I don't want to live this way. But here's my problem. This "self-resurrection" - it can take a million different forms. That must be why it keeps popping up in my life. It sneaks in before I even recognize it. And I wake up 2 weeks later to find that I am firmly entrenched in the self-willed life once again - yet again.
And yet I do not hesitate to admit. The self-willed life is a miserable life.
This morning, I am proclaiming once again. Here is Christianity. Our Savior died for us. And in return, we die for Him.
And it is here, in this death, that I believe is the only way to victory in Christianity.
Just as a servant knows that he must first obey his master in all things, so the surrender to an implicit and unquestionable obedience must become the essential characteristic of our lives. ~ Andrew Murray
The greatness of a man's power is the measure of his surrender. ~ William Booth
The man or woman who is wholly or joyously surrendered to Christ can't make a wrong choice - any choice will be the right one. ~ A.W. Tozer
You become stronger only when you become weaker. When you surrender your will to God, you discover the resources to do what God requires. ~Erwin Lutzer
We do not segment our lives, giving some time to God, some to our business or schooling, while keeping parts to ourselves. The idea is to give all of our lives in the presence of God, under the authority of God, and for the honor and glory of God. That is what the Christian life is all about. ~ RC Sproul
This is becoming the theme of my life. My battle cry. My motto.
It's His life. I live for Him. I live in Him. I live to Him.
I love Him, because He owns my life.